Busy day today. I had a doctor's appointment this morning. BP was good at 106/78 and I hadn't gained any weight in the past two weeks. I'm up 23 pounds at 32.5 weeks.

After the appointment, we went to Chili's for lunch. Ry got to pick where we were going and that's where he wanted to go. After that we went to Babies R Us and picked up the pack n' play and looked at strollers. I really like the Combi stroller they had there. It was lightweight and inexpensive. I also liked the Jeep Overland Limited Jogging Stroller. It has speakers on it so I can hook my iPod up to it and it also has an odometer on it. It will come in handy when I get back to running and walking. After there, we went next door to Target to pick up a few baby things that are cheaper there than at BRU and we needed to scope out the toys to see what Ry wanted for his birthday (Sunday). We ran into one of my bosses while we were there. Last time I went shopping (ran into Mervyn's) I ran into one of my other bosses. It figures, the two times I go out shopping...Now they probably really think I'm faking.

The kids are with their dad tonight, so Jason and I get a break!!

I'm super sore from walking around the stores, so I think I need to get some rest...

Oh yeah, the bedding arrived yesterday. I didn't order the quilt or the bumper since you're not supposed to use those anyways. The blue blanket is the one that I made. Notice Ry under the crib...

I think I either lost a filling or cracked one of my molars. At any rate it's very sensitive to cold. Hopefully it will be ok until after the baby is born.

They are putting the siding on the house across the street today. Guess what color it is, guess...You're right, tan. My house is still the only house back here that is not some shade of tan.

I finished the Anne Rice book. It was really good, but so different from all of the vampire books she's written. I hope this book leads to another. Now I think I'm going to read the newest David Sedaris book. I still need to find my box of unread books. It's downstairs somewhere and I looked for it a couple of months ago and couldn't find it. I need to have Jason go down and move some boxes around for me.

I have a regular doctor's appointment tomorrow and I need to stop at Babies R Us on the way home because I have some stuff that I have to get before the baby is born. I can't believe I only have 8 weeks left. Yikes. I don't know what I did last night, but I was in bed on the computer and went to get up to put my computer away and could hardly walk because my pelvis hurt so bad. It hasn't been that bad since I was working. I took a Vicodin because it hurt to just sit there. I slept terrible because of that and my bursitis last night and I'm still really sore today. I didn't do anything out of the ordinary yesterday, so I don't know what the deal is. I'm going to rest for the rest of the day today and see if that makes it any better.

Well, my cats are dying for my attention right now. I'll update again soon.

I'd update this more if I had any kind of life and had anything to write about.

The past week has been very boring and I haven't really done anything. I cheated and drove a mile to McDonald's with Ry one day just to get out of the house. How sad is that? I know I'm not supposed to drive, but it was a mile. So shoot me. Last night I had the most excitement that I've had all week when Jason and I went to WalMart to get groceries. I was in a lot of pain by the time we left there, but it was worth it to get out of the house. I'm still paying for it today though. Tonight we are going out to dinner with Mike and Kathy which will be nice. I'm looking forward to some good Chinese food and some adult interaction. After dinner we are going to run to JoAnn Fabrics to see if they have the wooden letters to spell Jacob. WalMart didn't have them and I want to get them painted. I might buy the stuff to crochet another blanket since I finished the one for Jacob. Maybe I'll give it away as a gift or sell it on eBay or maybe even keep it. You can never have too many blankets.

I'm bored out of my mind!!

My house is clean, my laundry is done, the kids are at school and at Kara's, there's nothing on TV, there's nothing to eat. I decided that I was going to start making some burp cloths for Jacob since I don't have any and I laid all of the fabric out on the kitchen table and started cutting and I think the position I was standing in made me sore. So I got the fabric cut out to make 2 burp cloths, but I'm too sore to sit in one of those chairs and sew. That will have to wait for another time.

I need to get out of this house, it's driving me crazy. I need some fresh air and I'm desperate to go for a walk, but I can't. I did walk across the street to get the mail, but that was it. Jason said he didn't want me getting the mail because he didn't want me to have to walk out there but I think that rule only applied to when it was snowy and icy out.

At least tomorrow I can take all of the ornaments off of the tree for something to do...

Could one more thing happen. I mean, really, when do I get a freaking break?

Austin is having major bedtime anxiety issues right now and it's stressing me out. For the past week, every single night we have to fight with him to go to bed. He ends up hysterical and totally freaks out. He wants to sleep with us or in the hallway right outside our door because he's afraid to be away from us. I don't know what to do. It's to the point where I'm in tears and my blood pressure has to be through the roof. I can't take this. I'm calling his therapist tommorrow to see if we can't get him in to talk to her. I really wish I could drive. Now Jason will have to take time off of work to take us to my doctor's appointment and now Austin's therapy appointments. Jeez, it never ends does it? Jason's in there right now trying to reason with him. We've been at it for over an hour and a half tonight. I needed to come here to vent!!

So, for the last 2 days I've been having a new kind of pain. I still have the pain from the bursitis and from the pelvic separation, but now I have pain in my sacroiliac joint area. The sacroiliac joint is at the base of your spine where it connects with your pelvis. When I went to the chiropractor it was tender in that area and when I went to the pm&r doctor it was too. It hurt quite a bit when they pressed on it, but since it didn't hurt unless it was pressed, we didn't worry about it. But the pm&r doctor said if I had any problems with it to call. Now, when I walk, I have the pain in my hips and the pain in my pelvis and pain in my lower back/butt area. I am going to call my pm&r doctor and see if I can get in sometime soon so they can check it out. Sitting hurts, laying down hurts, standing hurts and walking hurts. I can't win. The good thing is that I have less than 9 weeks left.

I will be having a baby in less than 2 months...

I really wish I could drive because I have a million things I need to buy yet for the baby. I wish I could walk around a store for that matter. I ordered the bedding online today and also ordered the replacement parts for the pump. A lot of the stuff I still need, I can't really find online. Stuff like lap pads, diapers, wipes, diaper rash cream, etc. A lot of the stuff I can find online, but I know it's cheaper in the store and some of it is big and I'd have to pay an arm and a leg for shipping. Stuff like the swing, stroller, pack 'n play, bouncy seat, ear thermometer, grooming set, hamper...

I asked my mom if she wanted to take me somewhere today to pick up a couple of things and she of course said no. I really didn't expect a different answer. So I'm just going to sit here and obsess about it because I'm bored out of my mind and there's nothing else to do. UGH...

At the rate I'm going, Jacob will be here and I still won't have anything that I need.

Oh yeah, I forgot to say that Jacob is in the Frank Breech position at 30.5 weeks. The doctor says that there is still time for him to turn, but I have this sneaky feeling that he wont due to the pelvic separation. I'm still googling it, but from what I see, babies go into that position a lot when there is an abnormality to the pelvic area, like pelvic separation. One good thing is that if he does decide to stay in that position, I still have a good shot at a vaginal delivery since that's the most favored of the breech positions. Btw, Frank Breech is butt down. Here's a pic, it doesn't look very comfy.

So, Jacob still has all of the same problems that he had before, but they don't think there is anything to worry about. They did confirm that he has a double collecting system in his right kidney so he will have to have an ultrasound about 6 months after he's born. He weighs 3 pounds 12 ounces.

My regular doctor's appointment was today too and they are going to help me get a temp handicap parking permit and they gave me a script for vicodin!! We also talked about labor and she said because of the pelvic separation she really wants me to have an epidural. She doesn't think I'll need a c-section as long as I have an epidural. I told her I wouldn't deliver without one anyways. She thinks that due to the severity of the separation that I will be quite sore for a while after delivery, but it shouldn't be as bad as it is now.

She also wants me to appeal the decision about the physical therapy and she wants me to talk to my pm&r doctor and have them see if they can expidite the process. The appeal process normally takes about a month and she said I can't wait that long. She also wants me to talk to my pm&r doctor to see if there are any labor options that they can suggest as far as positions that will work with an epidural.

Christmas was good, but now the house is a mess. It will probably be that way until the kids go back to school and Jason goes back to work. Darn toys.

I got a letter yesterday that my physical therapy will not be covered by insurance even though two separate doctors prescribed it for me. I might try to appeal that though. They say it's not covered for chronic illness and the rehabilitation of that. We'll I would think based on the fact that I have bursitis, it wouldn't be covered, but since the bursitis is a result of my pregnancy, maybe it will be covered since that wouldn't be considered chronic. I guess it's worth a try, but by the time I get my answer as to whether or not it's covered, I'll probably have had the baby. They say it goes through 2 appeal processes and the first one is 15 days. By then I'll be 33 weeks and if it has to go through another process that's also 15 days, I'll be 35 weeks and by then, is there really a point to the PT? I was in tears about it last night. It's not easy living with constant pain. We went to Target yesterday because I wanted to get out of the house and by the time we left there I was hurting pretty bad. We were there for about 25 minutes and trust me, I walk slooooowww.

I have another ultrasound today to check on Jacob's kidneys and heart. I'm excited about that because I want to see if it's resolved itself and plus we'll get to see him again and see how big he's getting. I have a regular appointment after my ultrasound too. I have a whole list of questions to ask for her...

1. Is there anything she can prescribe for the pain? There has to be something safe to take.
2. How am I going to deliver a baby if I can't open my legs? Sorry, too much info...
3. What can I take for heartburn? I had it last night pretty bad and I don't know if it's something I ate or if I'm just getting to the heartburn stage. I had it bad with Ry and just suffered through it.
4. Can I get a temporary handicap parking permit? My physical therapist wanted me to ask. They don't want me walking any more than I have to.

I think there was more, but I can't remember. I should write these questions down before I forget.

I'll update after my appointment.

Bath Salts

Are done. I made 4 containers. One for Corinne, my mom, Jason's mom, and Denise.

I made vanilla lavender and camomille. I had some left over so I can take a bath tonight and test them out. Jason's mom should like them because she can add it to the hot tub if she wants. It's just epsom salt, sea salt, and baking soda with some fragrance in there.

Those gifts are going to be from the kids.

I also got the rice krispie treats done. I just have to dip them in white chocolate tomorrow. Yay! I'm almost done.

Scarves

Matthew's blanket

I have a million things to do today and tomorrow. I need some serious motivation.

I have to:
Make a blanket for Matthew
Make a blanket for my mom
Make 2 scarves
Make rice krispie treats
Dip plastic spoons in chocolate
Make bath salts
Wrap presents

I'm going to try to get it all done today. Good thing is that most of that list can be done from the comfort of the recliner and won't be much effort. The thing that will be the worst is the wrapping. I can't sit on the floor and it hurts to stand too long and sit too long. I'll just have to speed wrap. I hope no one pays attention to detail.

I really hope that people don't mind getting home made gifts. I'll take some pictures of everything when I'm done.

I don't know why I let things bother me. I just don't know what I did to deserve the silent treatment. It hurts when people you thought were your friends won't return instant messages and emails. Oh well, enough about that, I have more important things to worry about.

Physical therapy went ok but I was a little sore when I left there. We really didn't do anything since this was just an evaluation, but she did have me try some stretches that I can do at home. There were a couple that she really wanted me to do, but my pelvic separation wouldn't allow it. She told me that she wanted me to talk to my doctor about getting a handicap parking permit for days when I do have to drive myself places. She really doesn't want me walking any more than I need to. She also said that she would like me to limit using the stairs to once per day. That will be impossible, but I can try not to go up and down as much. I have physical therapy twice a week until the baby is born. This Friday they asked Jason to go with me so they can show him some massage tecnhiques for my hips.

Kara called this morning to say that Brett was sick and throwing up so I have the kids with me today. So far, they have been good, let's just hope they keep it up. Austin is acting a little weird and I'm freaking out that he's going to be sick too. He was with Brett all weekend and all day yesterday. I made blueberry muffins for breakfast and he didn't want to eat them. I also asked him if he wanted some chocolate milk and he said no. He loves blueberry muffins and chocolate milk, so I don't know what's up with that.

I start physical therapy tomorrow morning. I've never been to physical therapy before and I'm a little nervous. I have to go so that they can stretch my hip and strengthen it but I'm afraid that when they do that it will hurt my pelvis. I guess I'll just have to wait and see.

I don't know if I slept wrong or not, but I am in so much pain today I can't stand it. I've done nothing all day and every time I get up I want to cry. It's not so much the bursitis but the pelvic separation that's causing the pain. The bursitis seems to have gotten better since the steroid injection and the rest is really helping with that. I just wonder why I seem to get bursitis so easily. It seems like it's something either old people or really athletic people get. I've had it in my shoulder and now both hips in less than 2 years. It's just weird. I'm only 30. I could see if I was still running a lot or something, but even when I was running, I wasn't running all that much. Oh well.

So much for the work restriction. I'm totally off of work now. I went to see the physical medicine doctor on Tuesday and was diagnosed with pelvic separation (SPD) and bursitis in both of my hips. I had a steroid injection in my right hip because that one was so bad. They aren't going to do the other injection until mid January because it's the same steroid that they use when you go into pre term labor to make the baby's lungs develop faster and they said they didn't want to "push mother nature". There's nothing that they can do for the SPD, that won't get better until after the baby is born and my body stops producing the hormones that are causing it in the first place. They told me that I need to rest often and preferrably on my left side. Well, that's the hip that hurts, so that doesn't happen too often. I start physical therapy on Monday for the bursitis though. Hopefully it helps.

When I went into my appointment I told them that I was currently on a restriction for work and they told me that they were taking me off of work until after the baby was born. They said the more active that I am, the more pain I will be in. Since there's nothing that I can take for the pain besides Tylenol, they need me to rest as much as possible. They said not total bed rest because that would just cause problems of it's own, but basically for every hour that I'm active, I need about a half hour of rest. I also can't drive. That's going to be a pain.

I went into work yesterday to fill out my timesheet and drop off some paperwork to my supervisor. I was going to clean off my desk but Steph said that it was already taken care of. I emailed a coworker to thank her and appologize for the mess. She replied with "sure". I'm glad that people think I'm faking this to get out of work. I'd gladly work over the feeling of someone stabbing me in the crotch with a knife every time I move my legs.

Well, I’m on a work restriction for Pelvic Separation (also known as Symphysis Pubis Dysfunction or SPD). I can only work 4 hours a day and the rest of the time I am under strict orders to be resting. I’m not allowed to pick the kids up or do housework or anything. Luckily Jason is really understanding about all of this and very supportive. I have to go back to the doctor next Thursday so they can reevaluate me and see how the restriction is working as far as my pain and comfort go. The pain won’t get better until after I have the baby, but hopefully I can keep it from getting worse so quickly by resting. I swear it’s worse every day.